i was waiting for a bus one day at a certain bus stop in jurong west. there was a rather skinny lady who obviously had some sort of speech disability and metal problems, she was trying to wave down a taxi, but being a sat there were many taxis but non available. she didn't get that taxis dont stop just because you wanted them too and so was scolding 'naughty' to anyone that was there, refering to taxis. about 5 of us were at the bus stop and not one of us paid her any heed, choosing instead to give sidelong glances and keeping to ourselves. then this malay lady and her two kids arrived. the malay lady was pretty well dressed and had some sort of..'upper class look' about her. when the first lady started scolding 'naughty' again, to my complete and utter suprise, the malay lady started to help her. first asking if she wanted to flag a taxi, where was her destination and then proceeded to help her flag down a taxi. in fact, she placed an arm around the first lady and sort of comforted her and reassured her that they would get a taxi. it was a long wait, infact the malay lady and her kids missed their bus as she helped the first lady if her kids' faces are anything to judge by. but in the end a taxi was flagged down, the malay lady saw to it that the driver knew where to go exactly before waving good bye and resumed waiting for her bus.

being someone who abhore contact of any sort with other people, unless it's close friends, i was deeply shocked and instantly ashamed of myself. here i was sitting on the bench happily in my own world painfully ignoring the lady and her plight because she seemed abit 'funny'. i didn't have to put my arm around her or even comfort her. what i could do was actually help her. and i didn't. instead like a typical singaporean i sat there and ignored. 'the less i bothered, the less trouble i have' is this the kind of mindset most singaporeans have? because honesyly, that IS my mindset, and i'm not proud.

i have never been so humbled in my life. 6 years of primary education, 4 years of secondary enducation and 2 years of junior college education and where has that gotten me? to ignore the plight of others? to shun and discriminate against others?

those 2 malay kids are in good hands.

attended to css concert at esplanade with jia on tues. it was alright....the standard dropped. i mean, the dancing was good. the acting was rather raw, but it was definatly better then just reciting out lines, the band was pretty good and the choir was....pretty useless? i guess what they tried was to infuse all the elements, but it came out rather disjointed instead. ah well, it's a secondary school thing, pretty impressive. neeways, me and jia had 100 dollars stall seats kudos to her sister. at the entrance mr leong was there to greet us and he was like "thanks for suporting ah!! hehe, let me see your tickets..wow!! thanks thanks!!' i didn't want to break his heart by saying i got them free so let's allow him to continue thinking i'm in love with css. our seats were stall seats. they were right in front.

3rd row to be exact.

right next to the vips.

in front of the teachers.

YEEEEEES!! our seats were thAt freaky. it was so unnerving!!! goodness!!! urgh. i hope i never experience that again. i'll rather be right at the back, on top with a pathetic view and be able to mumble my evil comments of anything which irks me. i felt so controled and suffocated in the good seats. yikes.

i wore my pointy shoes that day, so naturally i have blisters. but that's not the best part. i no longer have pinky toes because they're just 2 huge blisters. eww. my feet hate me now for torturing them. i blame jia. she was supposed to stop me from wearing them instead she said 'go ahead! =)' arrgh.

after our prac lesson today, me and jia rushed to our final theory lessons. it was madness, we were at bbdc from 8am to 145pm. and the lessons was so confusing because it was all about the damn clutch. being the self-admitted bad drivers we are, we chose auto, so we had no clue as to what the guy was yappering about. woowee. it's gonna take maximum brain power to memorize the book before we attempt to pass the damn theory test. sheesh.

my liquid assests are at an all time low. 5 bucks in my wallet and 8 bucks stuck in my account. urgh. money this month is tight, i've already asked my dad for extra money >.< i have to crub my spending. come to think of it, i actually haven't been spending alot.....in fact most of my money has gone to topping up that damned ez-link card!!! honestly!!! it's disgusting. i go out almost everyday yes, but it's ridiculous when 10 freaking bucks can't even last me a week. urgh.

tmr i'm going for the ccs concert with jia cause we got free tics from her sis. hahs. x) they're worth 100 each!! hahas. this is all cool, nice and dandy, only we're doing dinner together and we'll be in the city area with all the nice shiny sparkly things right in my face. i've already asked jia to pay for dinner first (loveyouloveyouloveyou) and i'll pay her back when april rolls along. but we'll probably walk around the shops abit. i think i'll have to advoid directly looking at stuff so my hands won't get itchy, and i won't feel sososo terrible that i can't buy that special something which just happens to be on sale tmr. urgh. so jia can go "oooo!! ahhhhhh!! wow!! look eve! so nice!!" and i'll just go "uhuh, right. wow." and pretend to look at it.

meeh.