so i failed my EL test again. everyone failed, but that's not the point.

i was sad and crushed and stuff.

but then i was like....i'm gonna fail this module. maybe by some trick of fate i may pass it. but if do it'll be a very sucky grade, effectively like fail. so fail.

it's fine. it's one module of the first sem. only the first sem.

the CAP score is cummulative, i can work harder for the rest of my modules to make up for it.

i enjoy EL lecture, i enjoy EL tutorial. so i'll just continue enjoying it and keep working hard for it. cliche but if i've put in my best effort for it, no regrets. seriously. =)

even if i'm gonna fail, i'm gonna enjoy it. ^^

crunch time. exams are loooming and i really have to get some serious mugging over the semi-serious mugging i've barely kept up through this sem.

so i thought, give yourself a little treat, waste the weekend away,
plan mah study timetable and organise my stuff on monday,
REALLY enjoy my tuesday date with yijia,
and on wednesday, get down to business.

this weekend was really fun. celebrated may's bday with EVERYONE. hahas, although serene didn't get to meet xz and lee, it was awesome enough for lee and xz to see each other. XD had a great night being wasteful teenagers (it is afterall our last year as one) and bitching about random desprete guys. many happy and funny memories from this one night. awesome. =)

anyhows,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAY AND SHIJIA!!!

whee. see the time. i have not slept. bumming around at may's house after a night out.

my feet hurt. i wore heels. i haven't worn heels out ever since sch started. i blame the love for my fake berks.whee. *dance* anyway it's five am and may's mum is asleep, so i can't watch tv. i have read the two issues of cleo and some trashy tabloid magazine...all twice. i have exhausted all entertainment resources. thank god for INTERNET. meeh.

i have two tests next week. yucks.

the same yowling cat has ran pass me twice now.

o_O


ugh. i'm really tired. and i really wanna watch deathnote. seriously, i've become a mugger who accomplishes a quatre of what she planned.

...there goes the yowling cat again.

i need sleep. i stayed up half the night going through the past years EL test2, running to the forums to ask questions and replying some. OMG. seriously, the amount of effort i put into this module at the cost of other modules is so not worth it when i see my reuslts. if it were just lousy marks fine. but i'm failing the module....

*insert angry long rant/ramblings/whinning*

BUT. i shall stop whinning. the only PRODUCTIVE thing i can do now is work doubly hard for test2 and the final exam. i'm not gonna give up. no way no.

it's not like i don't put in effort.

was walking down this enclosed staircase with may and amy in some shopping centre and passed a bunch of smoking teens.

smoking girl to smoking friends "how come so hot ah?"

see, smoking makes you stupid, in the most retarded way.

i am feeling rather depressed.

as in useless depressed.

i'm feeling useless and dumb.

feeling terribly unproductive. meeh.

i really should start on my gek term paper. but the mind refuses to work. i blame choosing to attend a panel discussion of the north korea nuclea bomb threat organised by the PSSOC. sure it was super informative and interesting, but it kicked my brain into overdrive. i need mindless entertainment.

ugh, the state of my mind reminds me of the period of time my brain felt during A levels. eww.

anyways, i'll probably start tmr or on sat. sat i'll be heading down to wheeeeeelock for a publications meeting. eek. but we're meeting at starbucks, so there's a chance i wont be in a daze. =X then maybe i'll go jalan jalan ard town looking at bags and shoes before running to some macs or coffeebean to do my essay. whee.

doodle doodle.

i realised my entries are either really short or just youtube videos i find after surfing around. hahs. so i'm trying to make this as readable and long and pointy as long as possible. yanno, practice for my BIO TERM PAPER which i have done shit much. all i have are a couple of links regarding bioengineering. =X

damn that Apple. they came out with the uber sexy red iPod nano, just when i'm getting sick and tired of my creative mp3 player which is as lasting as my attention span. the sides are split and the earphones died a million ears ago, while my $10 one from popular is working more than fine. meeh. anyway, the red iPod nano is for a good cause, a small amt of the profits go to the AIDS GlobalFund. damnit, singapore import it now!!! it'll be excellent if nus ITcoop sells it, cause it's much cheaper. XD hahahas.

anyways, i recently discovered a whole collection of songs from the 90's which i had burned during secondary school. OMG the LOVE the LOVE. cheesy songs rock my socks. XD i have A*teens and BLUE and Sclub7 OMG what a mainstream pop geek i am!! hahahahas. eh but i've got plenty of other awesome songs. hahas. AHH i even have 5ive!!! wahahas.

ahem. ignore that rant. hehs. meeting meizhu for a lunch date on friday which is excellent since we haven't met up since.....eons ago. =( shall drag qiu yong and wan ching to NUS one day. XD wow. i really miss all maah secondary school friends. it's like, there'll never be another set of human beings where everyone knows (at least by name and face) everyone. i've always felt my year of secondary school people were kinda....in our own world? hahas. we never needed to interact much with senior or juniors to have our own scandals rumours trouble problems fun. ehehs. how to express it...ehhh, CSS people should get what i'm saying. hahs! till this day the people i'm closet with are my secondary friends. =)

anyways, went to school today although it's mah free day (the HORROR the HORROR) to practise the TS scence with Cheryl, my partner in crime. i finally managed to memorise the chunk of dialogue, which is like a big relief cause you have no idea how much grief it gave me. let me try to type it out without peeking. hehs.

"I had a book of Bible stories when I was a kid. There was a picture I'd look at twenty times every day - 'Jacob wrestles the Angel'. I don't really remeber the story, or why the wrestling.. just the picture. Jacob is young and very strong. The Angel is... a beautiful man, with golden hair and wings, of course. I still dream about it. Many nights. I'm... it's me. In that struggle. Fierce and unfair. The Angel is not human, and it holds nothing back. So how can anyone human win, what kind of fight is that? It's not just. Losing means your soul thrown into the dusk, you heart torn out from God's. But you can't lose."

hmm. wait. i go check.

*rumaging ensues.*

AWESOME. not entirely word for word. just like one or two minute mistakes. hahahhas. am so damn in love with my memory. XD

zzzzzz

slacked my weekend away. spent quality time catching up on sleep and watching auntie-drama serials on youtube. XD excellent weekend i must say hahahahas. but i think i totally deserved it, especially after the super stressful past two weeks. besides, i'm planning to study real hard now after the little self imposed 'break' WAHAHAHAHAHAS.

urgh. but i gotta memorize my TS dialogue. i have this huge chunk of dialogue that i have to recite act out on wed. oh no...i have stage fright. =X

i hate project work.

of ANY FREAKING KIND.

especially if there are dumbass members who not only do not APPRECIATE your hard work, they actually have the NERVE to CRITICIZE my work ethics.

fuck you.

Ramones - Spiderman





i swear, nothing is more AWESOME.

"Losing My Religion"

Life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight
Losing my religion
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

Every whisper
Of every waking hour I'm
Choosing my confessions
Trying to keep an eye on you
Like a hurt lost and blinded fool
Oh no I've said too much
I set it up

Consider this
The hint of the century
Consider this
The slip that brought me
To my knees failed
What if all these fantasies
Come flailing around
Now I've said too much
I thought that I heard you laughing
I thought that I heard you sing
I think I thought I saw you try

But that was just a dream
That was just a dream

-R.E.M

i still miss you.

Every time I tell someone my modules, they’re most likely to only be interested to ask me about my theater studies module. Hehs. I guess out of the 5 it’s the most unusual one. =) It’s the most tedious and dry when it comes to theory work but practical is a hell lot of fun.

Anyways, our latest project for TS practical is to work in pairs to act out a scene between ‘A’ and ‘B’. To help us analyse and make our characters seem more real (realist play) we have to come up with as much background information and story about them. It was pretty fun to work on them with my partner, Cheryl, hahahhaas. We came up with a whole cock and bull story and started linking and coming up with so many side stories and different explanations for the behavior of our characters. Damn fun can? Hehs.

Ooooh, our TS lecturer is this guy called Dr KKSeet, whom I’ve never heard off before stepping into NUS but is apparently quite the icon in Singapore’s theater scene. O.o
Anyways, here’s his website managed by his unofficial fanclub ‘Devotees of the Diva”

www.kkseet.com

Go check it out. Hahahas.

Oh. During yesterday’s tutorial conducted by him, one student was arguing about singlish being acceptable as a language. This just set KKSeet off like a firecracker!!!! He was so agitated and dramatic when he replied to the student that all of us could only blink and feel attacked by his never ending flow of perfectly enunciated words. Like mh, I don’t think I’ll ever talk to him personally or he’ll just end up correcting every single word I say making me feel very very very small. ._.

i am terribly bored. =(

am at mah GEK lecture. which is really boring cause i know the stuff being taught. XP
i'm just waiting for the break cause my lecturer is uber lazy and will continue lesson for like another half hour then let us watch some video. hahahahs. whee.

after 2 hours of studying. i feel stupid. i really do.

are readings made to be confusing on purpose? what good is using big confusing words to illustrate a simple point? it doesn't make you seem intelligent, it makes you sound like you have no idea what you're writting about and is extremely frustrating for readers.

or maybe i'm just dumb with a too superficial vocabulary to comprehend fully what you arseholes are trying to write. WTF.

sometimes i have no idea what i'm studying. i'm seriously regretting taking theater studies as one of my modules. i still have no idea what i'm studying or what i'm supposed to know? it seems like all i need to do is burn martin elssin, mix the ashes in water and drink up, to memorize the whole damn book.

the readings of political science are killing me. the thought of having to digest and fully understand what they're trying to get across(mind you each article is so similliar you have to squint to get the difference, if there is any) and then sit for the exam which is mostly about writting essays....makes me cry.

and i'm feeling stupid cause i realise that i don't know how to write a decent essay. lets not get to the CITING part. as a bloody science student i was never taught how to cite stuff. lets just talk about the basic content. i propbably won't be able to come up with any concrete or decent content because i too bloody opinionated. and what appears to be similiar but different points to others just look the same to me. which is why my gp comprehension summaries used to get sucky content cause i never saw more than 6 points when there are like 15.

i'm scared and half stressed out. sigh.

what on earth are you doing with your life evelyn?

am in the CL right now. trying to get some studying done after a whole week of doing absolutely nothing. ahhhhhh. neeways, i've got until 6. which means 5 more hours. i really shld get down to studying.

already i miss sleeping. =(