Hold on if you feel like letting go.

Okay, totally not the time to get all emotional and feel like crap.

But these are words I wished I told you, long ago.

Sometimes, I forget. Sometimes the pain is so bad, I can feel it physically. There are still nights where I cry myself to sleep.

I could probably say things like "All I ever wanted was for you to be happy".

But I guess that's kind of pointless.

Oh god.

I keep finding new lows.

I wish I wasn't so pathetic.

If I had a cape.

I would spread my arms and fly.

I would travel the world, visit the seas and pop by a couple of oceans.

I would tell you the colour of the sky is blue, green and a dash of redyelloworange.

I would skip jams, never be late.

I wouldn't mind the cold.

I would pretend to be a super hero.

To save you.

But I don't.

Oh well. Life.

I still want to save you though.

People

There are some people in my life that I have to take 200% to even stay in contact, be relevant and seem important. (so what do I mean to you? probably nothing.)

Yet there are some whom I don't bother, but we end up back with each other anyway. We disagree, go through stages of being irritated, but a few months later we're out laughing again. The relationship, it's like siblings. We gravitate to one another, even if we're not happy about it at times.

Funny how the people I put in 200% seems to care about me 20% and my 'siblings' are always, always there when I need them.

So I'm still waiting. Cause you're one of my first 'sibling'. I could never run away from you. I will wait.

Study? What study?

So instead of studying for the stupid visual test tmr, or being productive and working on my two essays due the end of the week, I spend time creating playlists for the year end trip to Melbourne.

Words and pictures alone are not enough to describe the awesome feeling of freedom you get when on a road trip. It's like flying a never ending kite, it's like forever looking out to the never ending sea.

It's an exhilarating mix of control and lack of control.

I hope you dance

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty-handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance, I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances, but they're worth takin'
Lovin' might be a mistake, but it's worth makin'
Don't let some hell-bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to sellin' out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance, I hope you dance
I hope you dance, I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion, always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years
And wonder, where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

Dance, I hope you dance
I hope you dance, I hope you dance
I hope you dance, I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years
And wonder where those years have gone)

-Leann Womack

This is a post purely for me.

We can all do with some happy.

This is a birthday girl.

<3