i gave up the offer to stay at KR hall.

i got the call to ask me to move in by this week yesterday. call it cold feet, but i spent the night talking to people staying in hall and weighing the pros and cons.

it basically got down to two main points.

1 the strongest reason why i wanna stay in hall is to experience it...have the feel of being independent... but seriously, the way i coop myself in my room, it's almost as if i stay alone. i mean i hardly ever step out of my room. i love my room.

2 i am not willing to use my cap as a bet. not ever. cap is a cruel and evil system that punishes anyone who so much as let their grades drop for any ONE module for any ONE semester. i will never use my cap as a bet.

it's like what ML said, rejecting the place will make the heart ache/itch, but it'll just be for a short while and its over. but playing with the cap is gonna haunt me forever.

my heart itches right now, but it's a choice i'm not gonna regret.