I've taken to stalking the facebook profiles of people I guess I could once call friends. Now we are probably merely acquaintances with history.
It's a little sad. Such wonderful people I would have loved to continue having a steady relationship with. But sometimes the desire is not mutual and we just fade away. And for me, a large part of it was my JC life. A whole two years of my life which seem to be cut off, a blackout. Secondary was formative and university, the best years of my youth. So I guess JC kind of fell through the cracks. But still its with some regret that I look back and realise not any of my friendships then held on or developed further. And I used to call one, the sister I never had.
But much like how siblings never really get along and never really have a best friend relationship, ours faded with a lack of contact. Perhaps I was enjoying the new relationships I made in university.
So I guess it's just a messy ball of could have beens.
That is why I'm really glad that there are people in my life, that make time for me. Who drop by to say a little
greeting. Thank you.
And even now where work is 90% of my time, I will make that extra effort to meet you, to have a chat. Not because I know you will do the same. but honestly, because to me, you're worth it. :)