It's not just getting used to acronyms and how the police force works. It's not just reading the multitude of instruction manuals and standard operation procedures. It's not just interacting with people.
It's my first job. I have no experience whatsoever. How to write the proper emails, to whom, who else must I cc? Basic company culture, work ethics how they function, I have no experience in all this. You can't get any fresher than this.
And yet, I have a post where I am in charge of so many things. I don't need a boss to hold my hand and spoon feed me, but I really don't think I'm ready or in a position to hold other people's hands and spoon feed them. I sincerely feel like I bit off more than I can chew this time. The entire job just seems so daunting.
So I'm thankful for many things. Like how my 'assistants' are always willing to teach me. How everyone is so kind. How my dy commander likes me and really understands how fresh and inexperienced I am (he was the one after all, that decided on my appointment). How my upper study isn't leaving till October.
So my learning curve is now a vertical, but I've really found a job that needs me.
I CAN DO THIS x10000000000000000000
I am completely terrified of my commander now though, from all the stories I have heard.