after 2 hours of studying. i feel stupid. i really do.

are readings made to be confusing on purpose? what good is using big confusing words to illustrate a simple point? it doesn't make you seem intelligent, it makes you sound like you have no idea what you're writting about and is extremely frustrating for readers.

or maybe i'm just dumb with a too superficial vocabulary to comprehend fully what you arseholes are trying to write. WTF.

sometimes i have no idea what i'm studying. i'm seriously regretting taking theater studies as one of my modules. i still have no idea what i'm studying or what i'm supposed to know? it seems like all i need to do is burn martin elssin, mix the ashes in water and drink up, to memorize the whole damn book.

the readings of political science are killing me. the thought of having to digest and fully understand what they're trying to get across(mind you each article is so similliar you have to squint to get the difference, if there is any) and then sit for the exam which is mostly about writting essays....makes me cry.

and i'm feeling stupid cause i realise that i don't know how to write a decent essay. lets not get to the CITING part. as a bloody science student i was never taught how to cite stuff. lets just talk about the basic content. i propbably won't be able to come up with any concrete or decent content because i too bloody opinionated. and what appears to be similiar but different points to others just look the same to me. which is why my gp comprehension summaries used to get sucky content cause i never saw more than 6 points when there are like 15.

i'm scared and half stressed out. sigh.

what on earth are you doing with your life evelyn?