oh Foolish Child.

it's not worth it.

no one cares.

you'll only be unhappy.

move on.

it's like a slap in the face. but you just keep going for more.







it hurts when the emotions and feelings of another mean so much to you. like yours don't matter and theirs are your treasure. but you can't live that way. no one is going to pity you. stand up. or don't ask for anything in return. you, are simply, not the one.







人是犯奸的。

I've been feeling lonely.

A little empty, like I've been missing out.
I really wonder what it's like to give it all up?

To let go.

Maybe one day it will happen.

I am happy. But I also think I could be happier. Could be sadder.

Could feel a little more.

Viva Forever

Spice Girls was a very important part of my childhood.

The NDP song of 2001, I marched as part of the Girl Guides contingent back 11 years ago.

I love Singapore, Happy Birthday.

I am proud to be a Singaporean. :)

What do I really want?

I turned 25 slightly more than a week ago.

I must admit, I'm afraid of growing old alone. With all my friends pairing up.

But it's okay I guess. Not everyone finds their other half.

we could all dream a little bit

When she was just a girl
She expected the world
But it flew away from her reach so
She ran away in her sleep 
And dreamed of 
Para-para-paradise, Para-para-paradise, Para-para-paradise
Every time she closed her eyes





The world will keep spinning, we wake up sleepy and go to sleep weary.
But, count your blessings, because they are there.
Take comfort in the smallest happiness, because they are there.
I guess things will always get worse, like how they get better.

Why choose to be unhappy?

Lunch musings.

I just had, a subway steak and cheese melt with only olives and pickles. Washed it down with the diluted sorry excuse for coke Macdonalds has. I much prefer it to the poison from the can. oh well.

Got offered a posting. Quite flattering that all three levels of management, right to the top, approached me. But having really considered it, I don't think I'll take it. It's not what I want now.

What I do want now is to go shopping and spend money. hurhur.

This is just going to be a random post of things amusing me right now.

Omg this kitty. Pathetic kitties are the most fun.

I recently read a very disturbing interpretation of Totoro. You can read it here.

I am currently lusting over an 18 year old. How excellent.

So my daily life is now:

1. wake up. feel like shit.
2. spend more than 8 hours working
3. i.e. being a nanny. 
4. rush home and a million bitchy thoughts in my head.
5. contemplate buying stuff from the supermarket.
6. eat dinner.
7. tumblr images of reallyhot18yearold.
8. watch the occasional kitty video and have more motherly instincts than when watching baby video.
9. however watching baby and kitty? This baby is just SMOTHERING the cat.
10. pass out 
11. repeat.

Weekends are precious and wonderful. Mainly because I am still keeping up with Japanese, although barely. And I get to meet people I like. And hang out. And catch up and pig out and essentially just enjoy each other's company.

Companionship. 

Stop and listen.

Adele - Rolling in the Deep (Piano/Cello/Vocal Version feat. Amanda Scot...


Alright, I can seriously just spend hours listening to the Piano Guys.

You don't know how much you meant to so many of us.

Just close your eyes

The sun is going down

You'll be alright

No one can hurt you now

Come morning light

You and I'll be safe and sound

There is so much I miss about you. But the most heartbreaking thing is I've grown so much and you never had the chance. Never got to live past 15, do the things you wanted to do, could do could become.

What could have been.

We live in a close-minded world.

Yesterday I found out that a new minion is gay and that he had been sent to a psychologist because he had a boyfriend.

WTF.

How damaging is that? That people who you are supposed to respect and emulate actually send you to see a psychologist because of your sexual preference?!?!?!

And why am I obliged to tell his superior of his sexual orientation?!?!? Does it make him any less of a person?

So angry at how people can still be so close minded.

Lae Michelle plays the most annoying character on Glee, but her voice. Omg her VOICE.