I am tired of pulling a happy face and pretending everything is alright and fine and dandy, when obviously you're pushing it. I'm pushing it.

Too many fingers this time. Please go away.

It's not called letting down. It's called "I told you so."

I wish something good would happen right now.

The past week has been about birthday parties and celebrations one after another. I am now officially broke! And there's more parties to come. Save up for Aussie?

Yeah Right.

It's becoming almost a total Daddy-sponsored trip. Ironic that I'll be spending my 21st birthday (supposedly milestone to adulthood) away from family and largely sponsored by the Dad.

Maybe I should just save up for a WII and Guitar Hero. Hello addiction. Spent a large part of Remmy's celebration at Camy's house playing Guitar Hero, I am officially addicted people. This is not good. Hahs.

Anyways, Happy birthday to all the birthday babies around! =D

PEOPLE. I AM GOING TO UK.

JUST GOT THE ACCEPTANCE EMAIL.

AM SO HAPPY PEOPLE.

From 20th April to 8th May. I spent 19 days in pain and frustration. But I also enjoyed the whole experience thanks to some lovely people in the Art's Clubroom. As much as it pleases me that next sem I won't have to mug like this again, it saddens me that this is probably the last time we can push each other along during the dreaded exam period.

There will never be another time like this.

Blogger is acting up today.

I'm up at the 3rd floor today instead of the usual space in the meeting room. And I'm totally not studying. But I guess I can take break? Completed like 5 lectures in the morning and early afternoon. Point being, the dad is coming to fetch me home in a hour.

I'm not in the best of moods right now.

It's not that i'm pissed or stressed up or annoyed at anything in particular.

The last time I felt this way, and oddly enough, I remember very clearly was one day during rag when the heat, the dirty, the mundaness of everything just curled into one stormcloud over my head. I feel that way now. Except not the dirty, but the body. Anyways I remember the only thing I wanted to do was go home and sleep.

This is exacly what I'll be going home to do. =D
Eveeryone take a break when they need to yay!!!

And Kaiweeeeeee is retarded by "Say Hi to Evelyn's blog!!!"

"See, you mourn what you had. I mourn what will never be."

I think this sums up the past 7 years and on.

So i downloaded this Japanese movie which I knew was going to break my heart but I watched it waaaay into the previous night. OF course I had to start sobbing like a baby and now my eyes are swollen and my double eyelids are gone.

Because you know, red eyes are totally attractive. -_-

Seesh.

3 papers down, 2 more to go. They seem like a long way off, but I know I have very limited time to study for both. Still, the inertia is so great. If it wasn't for the fact I booked a consultation with a Prof, I'll probably still be snoooozing in my bed instead of preparing for the consultation tomorrow. Yikes!

I want my motivation please~!